Saturday, January 23, 2010

long distance everything

Had a talk with my best friend the other day. As always we would talk about what 'will' be. Truth is, we have this conversation everytime my life take a turn for big canges. and everytime, the conversation always feel like one of those in shrink-patient scene.

We agreed that blogging would be a perfect way to let each other know what happens to the other party. (I suck at communicating through a device called telephone and I suck equally at ym-ing or skype-ing).
Actually, I'm just too good at long distance relationship. Pfft.
Really. I could go on not worrying myself if I didn't know what was happening to the 'other person'. Blame it on my optimism. 'Ignorant' really is a harsh word.

Told you I'm good at this huh?
Too good in fact that if anyone didn't know me better, I'd be accused of being a snob,anti-social or that I just couldn't care less.
Yep, I've heard it all before. Tired of making excuses for myself. Sometimes I think what they say is just soo dead-on!

Try convincing someone you that you care for them and that while occasionally you do forget about them and just because you don't call them, it doesn't change the fact that yes, you miss them, and yes, they mean a lot to you.
Because that cliche-d line in cheesy romantic movies;
"Just because I don't show it doesn't mean I don't feel it"
doesn't work as easily as it seems........

Which explains why I get a stream of curses thrown at me every single time based on the crime of not picking up the phone first.

If I have a real shrink in front of me, I'd ask him to tell me if it reaally is an ego thing. Maybe it's a rejection thing.
You know,if you don't call them first you wouldn't know if they didn't pick up the phone because they don't want you, or because they're too busy to spare some nanosecond time with you. Either way, not trying seems a lot easier and the plus is you wouldn't know anything about being rejected because you rejected them first.

Wow, I don't need a shrink after all! I could do it all by myself.
I should've taken psychiatric indeed what with my phsycho-analysing and shit.

But at least now I know the people who are still in my life are either blood-bound or they really want to be with me despite being rejected. (not I intentionally reject them. it's subconciously). And that they're a lot stronger than I am. Or maybe they're just too annoying to let me off the hook. Hahaha... I'm kidding.
I'm glad you didn't let me go simply because I wouldn't call.
Sometimes the solution is to just call me if you know I wouldn't. :P

No lah.. Seriously, I'll try harder. But if I fail, I hope you won't give up on me.
Because I'm good at long distance everything, remember? :)

united states of euphoria

We can't be happy all the time. But at least we can try. Because no one wants to be sad. The less we think about it, the more we can just be.

Friday, January 22, 2010

gender-interest stereotypes

Whoah, my favourite topic. Gender issues. Yaayyy!
Ever had one of those conversations with other people where they ask you about your hobbies or interests where they go:

Jane Doe: Yeah, so what do you do in your free time?
Me: Anything i guess..
Jane Doe: Play any musical instrument?
Me: Um... Keyboard,but I suck at it. I've always wanted to play a bass though....
Jane Doe: *raised eyebrows* BASS huh??

Oh, how irksome it is to have someone questioning your interests just because it doesn't 'behoove' your gender to have so-and-so interest/hobbies. >.<
You'd think people would open their narrow mind once in a while and not look at you like you're an oddball... Ngeh.
I even hear THIS sometimes which I think is absolutely silly and preposterous:

"You listen to that? I thought that's a guy kinda music."

Seriously, what does that even mean?Music is supposed to be universal, so universal in fact that it overcomes language barriers all over the world but it could NOT transcends GENDER? Bah.

That's a load of bull if you ask me. Interests are interests.You don't have to adopt a hobby because it suits your sex. Really, I've always wanted to learn how to play bass. Not because it's 'cool', or because "That's how I roll". I simply like the sound of that sexy instrument. Because it sounds deeper and...sexaayyyy...

But of course lah there shouldn't be any "Only a boy should do that." "Only fags listen to classical music because Mozart was also a fag." "Oh, girls shouldn't listen to such violent songs because we are so,so delicate...." =p

Come on people!! I just wanna listen to some rock n roll and not just dance on my ballerina shoes~~~ cut me some slack will yaaaaa....

p/s: d'arcy wretzky of the smashing pumpkins. <3

chasing something

This state of nothing-ness is fast coming to an end! Mwarrr~ ^__^
Finally something to really look forward to and I don't mean waiting for result to come out or the long awaited emails and letters than seem to take ages to be delivered to you.
Oh well.

Never mind that, but I've been feeling so pumped up lately~~ YEAH!
Before, I was almost an empty shell. Walking around in a state of idiocy and plastic joy. Real fun comes when you have something to look forward to. A human would be empty without any of these things I believe: Religion, dreams and who wants to guess what else?
Lurrveeee lah what else? =p

Dang, I dont want to risk sounding like some corny moron. So let's stop at that. Put simply, you gotta be chasing something in life or at least have a purpose. I certainly don't want to waste my whole life figuring what I want to do. Why don't I just jump headfirst into the water and figure it out along the way rather than trying to figure it all so hard than I forgot to even experience life.
Life so far isn't quite as hard as I imagine it would be. But maybe I've been lucky all these while. Gotta appreciate this to the fullest no? You never know when life would start throwing shitload of lemons instead of peaches at you!


Been checking out my school senior's deviantart gallery. Mi~~ <3
I've always felt a certain awe towards her.. I mean, not her, but at what she can do. She's darn good!!! She's probably not the best there is, (but compared to me.. oh boyyy) I know there must be about gazillion talented geniuses out there. But she's someone I know and I wanna start off by surpassing someone who isn't a total stranger.
Yeah, I'm pretty competitive. Rawr~ =p

You can check out some of her art jam work. WARNING. They may contain mature content or images. It's not so bad, but some people are touchy about this obscenity thingy... But mostly they're pretty cool and cute. Browse at your own risk, prudss! ^_^

p/s: Sorry Nana, but I refuse to give u my ID. I'll show u some of my work when I'm rich and famous and successful as an architect one day. hahaha.... :PP

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

dusty and rusty

Omygod, I have finally retrieved my deviantart password back. And when I looked at all the drawings I in my gallery, only one word popped out inside my brain and the word is DUSTY. >.<
Fah. Must have been about 2 years since I last updated it. I'm pretty sure I can't even draw a straight line now....

You know that feeling when you kinda remember something good and your heart starts pounding reaaallly fast? That's exactly how I feel when I looked back at all my past work stashed behind the table in my room. The re-discovery of passion towards something. In my case, it's drawing. Well, okay, most of the time it's just sketching because sometimes I 'couldn't' get around to actually drawing it properly. ( Me being lazy. Go figure.) Ngeh.


p/s: it's ugleyyhhhh!!! gotta work harder... >.<

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

things i can't say

I guess I will see you after all...
I just don't think it's good to go on like this. Nadon is right. Resentment is poison. The world would be a beautiful place if all human feel a lot less of resentment. Wow that sounds unrealistic.
But hating someone is tiring..
Why do people say that hating is easier? *sigh*
Now how am I suppose to act in front of you?
Is there a right way to talk to somebody?

I think I will wish you all the best.

What I can't say is that, I think even under a different circumstances we still couldn't get each other. I hope you won't try because I don't want you to.

Monday, January 18, 2010

babe ruthless

Jyeah for another inspirational film like this one. Kudos ex-wild-celebrity-child Drew Berrymore on her directional debut. :)
I guess what I like about this film the most is that although a person is a social misfit, if a person look for it hard enough, she'll find her niche where there's only acceptance and laughter.
And Ellen Page is just too cute for anyone to miss this.
Love the toy boy, love the poster girl, love the T-shirt, and I so love the ass-kicking part.

p/s: can i just say, the swimming pool scene?? sexy. :)

toing toing~

I give frequently but I seldom take.

And trust is a commodity that many seek but can never have.


Sunday, January 17, 2010

don't wanna see u

Berdepan dgn masalah.. :'(
Macam mane korang bagitau someone yang korang xnak jumpe him/her?

This is how the story goes. Aq ade sorang member ni. Honestly, dy x rapat sgt dengan aq. Honestly jugak, aq x brape suke dy. Aq xtawu ape perasaan dy kat aq, tapi aq rase dy x suke aq. Senang kate, last time, when we were together, ade gelombang2 dan aura2 x sedap antare aq ngan dy. Tapi both of us sort of just ignore each other dan tidak menghadapi konfrontasi. Tapi mase kitorang bawak haluan masing2, memang dah bermaaf-maafan. Aq memaafkan prasaan x elok yg we had towards each other dulu. But.. I know myself better than anyone. Sometimes kite nak maafkan seseorang tu, tapi hati kite masih marah lagi.
Mungkin kite bermaaf-maafan mase tu pun sebab it was coming to an end and we might not see each other again.
Ikhlas ke aq dan kau???
It's hard to be around that person because inside my mind I keep on replaying and rewinding the hurt and resentment I felt towards said person.

Bukan la aq benci kat dy. Tapi senang kate, aq memang susah jugak kot nak NGAM ngan dy. Wavelength x same. Circumstances made us friends. But I don't think that we're real friends. Because friends just don't do..... The things we did to each other.
I cannot come to terms to the things she said to me.
I cannot come to terms to the accusations that was not said to me, but was thought of by everyone at that time anyway. I know because it was in their eyes. The misunderstanding was so deep that I could do nothing but cry.

Sume tu dah xpenting skarang. Tapi aq betul2 rase xnak berdepan dgn dy lagi dah...
Dy kate nak jumpe aq bwat kali terakhir sebelum aq pergi ke Australia. Dy tanye seolah2 memintak permission aq sebelum aq pergi. Dy jugak bertanye seolah2 dy betul2 berharap nak jumpe dgn aq seblum aq pergi.
Waaaarghhhhhhh~~~~ Help meeeeeee!
Aq pun insyaallah, dah nak pegi ke negare orang. In the future, blum tentu aq boleh jumpe dgn dy lagi. Tapi aq takut sgt2.
Aq xnak get hurt by what that person may say to me again. It was something I just want to put behind me and never deal with again, and never see again, and never feel again!

Jujur aq cakap, aq masih lagi x boleh lupekan ke-hipokrasi-an kau sebab kau hipokritlah kau pijak aq depan semua orang. For 3 months long. For 3 goddamn months long I was alone and scared and resented and rejected and judged and i dunno!!!, in pain so much that I did everything just to distract myself from those judging eyes of human beings who think they know everything but really, they know nada about.

Notice the bitter resentment in my tone? Reflects my feelings exactly.

Xnak jumpe kau lagi. Tapi aq xnak kau tau yang aq masih x suke kat kau. Argh..
Just say NO nad. Ingat x yang aq ade masalah nak say no to someone?
Say no. Say no. But.... Is it the right choice?
Maafkan jelah orang tu natto..
It's better than being in pain and indebted to someone. It's better to remember the good things and forgive and forget the bad.

Tapi manusia biase mcm aq ni menghadapi masalah mcm ni jugak. :'(
Plz give advice friends? Because I'm torn between doing what's right and avoiding something that just might hurt me again.


Friday, January 15, 2010


lady luck is smiling on me
before me is a tunnel of light
what is it going to be?
will it be a garden of paradise
or the deepest abyst of hell
either way
i'm going to find out

i'm going to lie down in a bed of roses
and with some luck i may escape
the pricking of thorns
for the sweet fragrance
is a temptation I cannot resist

Now let's see where this train is taking me to.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

taking chances

what do you say to taking chances?what do you say to jumping of the edge never knowing if there's solid ground below, or hand to hold, or hell to pay.

~Taking chances. Currently my favourite song. :)
You're wasting your time reading this blog. It says so in the URL. go figure. :P

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

play doctor and playboy.

Ye, saye suke tgk HOUSE M.D.


Ye, saye suke tgk HOUSE BUNNY.

NO, x bermaksud saye nak JADI PLAYBOY BUNNY.


I'm pretty sure we're not short on doctors in Malaysia. Gee, i dunno. I'm just saying. But i'm pretty sure, agak konfem, bahawe FAMILY aq sangat penuh dengan para DOKTOR2 sekalian.

I'm an asshole for not wanting to go to med school and stick my finger up someone's ass???

So what! I'm still a rock star!

erbs... yet another emo post reflecting my state of emo-ness!

yeahh... when are people gonna start accepting me for what i'm passionate about?

cheese and macaroni!!!! im going crazyyyyyy~

Monday, January 11, 2010

sir jamie oliver

Sape kat sini suke memasak??? Angkat tangan please.

Sebab aq x suke memasak. Haha... Aq x suke memasak especially kalau org suruh aq masakkan untuk dyrang. Ahhh, banyak cikadak kau?? Kau yg nak makan, kau pegi la masak megi kari ke ape, byk cantek kau nak suruh aq masakkan. Huh.

Sungguh aq cakap same lu, memasak tu buat i berpeluh2. Panas u...

Dah la kene berdiri lame2, saket tumit dy lagi teruk drpd aq shopping 5 jam.

Tabik kat orang yang pandai masak. Sebab aq pandai makan je. :)

Sebenarnye mase kecik2 dulu, aq berminat gile nak memasak. Tapi mase aq umur 6-7 tahun dulu, aq suke berdiri kat dapur untuk tgk time bibik aq masak dulu. *dulu aq berbibik, tapi skarang dah xde dah* Tapi bibik aq ni dulu garang cam singe betine lapar. Dy kate aq "MENYEMAK" bile aq curious tengok dy memasak dulu. Cipan kau!

Lepas tu, bile bibik aq tu dah di-fired oleh maharani rumah aq ni, aq pulak tolong maharani memasak. Tapi, apekan daya aq.. Mak aq garang jugak sebenarnye. Aq kalaw bab masak2 ni dulu amateur cket. Bawang nak hiris ngan potong membulat pun aq x reti. Mak aq suruh tutup periuk, aq pegi tutup api dapur... Nak menyanyi dalam dapur pun x boleh. Nanti 'overcooked' laa, dapur terbakar laa orang kate... Yada yada yada, last2 kene marah gak ngan mak aq mase tolong2 dy memasak dulu last2 aq pun malas laa nak memasak lagi. Asyik kene marah je, aq pun bosan jugak. Aq menerima dgn redha bhawe aq xde talent untuk memasak...

*abang aq lagi pandai memasak dari aq! ceit! nasi goreng dy aq bagitawu korang, memang best tahap cipan. bagi aq la... :P

Tapi aq ade secret yang x seberape secret nak bagitau. Aq suke tgk lelaki memasak especially lelaki yang bername Jamie Oliver itu... Haha..

Sir Jamie, tolong lah ajar saye memasak. *bat eyelash*. Aq kan duduk kat jb, so kitorang dpt curik line singapore. Channel 5 tuh channel singapore la. Petang2 dy slalu tunjuk Jamie Oliver's show. Aq follow from Jamie tu single, sampai lah dy dah kawen dgn girlfriend dy dan ade sorang daughter. Saye nak Jamie Oliver. <3 Hahaha~

And NOW. Cuti 2 bulan. Boring, aq x tawu nak buat ape kat rumah. Aq dah re-run sume cite hindustan yang ade kat rumah aq ni, the Mentalist season 1 dah abis tengok, Gossip Girl season 2 rerun, dengan GLEE! season 1 pun aq dah habis tgk jugak... Jadi ape yang aq buat skarang ni????

Aq memasak.

Yeah baby yeah. Tahap kebosanan aq ialah, sampai macam tu sekali. Tengah hari ok lagi, aq bukak Faceook, aq twitter, tgk movie ke ape kan.. Kalau mmber ajak kuar, aq pun kuar dari rumah. Tapi kalau aq duduk rumah, petang2 dalam pukul 5-6 tu.... Bowsan dy... Astaga... Sampai nak menangis jugak lah bosan dy. Aq nak kuar jalan2 amek angin, cycling around neighbourhood kat sini... But NOooooOooo..

Perempuan bahaye kuar rumah sorang2 la, nak pegi kedai depan rumah pun x boleh, cycling pun x boleh sebab takut kene snatch masuk van lah... Perogol sini sane, perompak, pencurik, penjahat, pembunuh, semua evil villain keluar daaa.... Aq malas nak pk banyak2, last2 aq masuk dapur, bukak oven.


Aq buat vanilla cupcakes, chocolate cupcakes, mars bars cupcakes, toffee apple tart, dan lasagna. YES! Ok, tapi honestly, yang aq buat first time betul-betul jadik ialah chocolate cupcakes dgn mars bars cupcakes je. Vanilla cupcakes tu keras sgt aq buat, lasagna pulak mcm ade hangus cket topping cheddar cheese dy, yang toffee apple tart tu pulak filling dy memang best... Tapi dough dy keras cam biskut. Like, it's my first time buat dough okay.... So kalau Jamie Oliver jadi cikgu aq pun mesti dy bangge dengan pencapaian aq ni. YATTA~! :D

Sir Jamie, disebabkan saye terlalu bosan jugak, saye telah masuk kelas baking pade setiap hari Sabtu PAGI. *Gile aq ni.. Who the heck wakes up in the morning on Saturdays??
Sir Jamie, disebabkan saye masak, saye jugaklah yang makan ape yang saye masak; saye sangat takut.....
Takut tailored trousers and blazer aq tak muat nanti~~~~ >.<

But Sir Jamie. I hope you're proud of me. :)

p/s: Oh ye.. Sape2 nak gelak kat aq sebab aq memasak, meh sini aq bitch-slap engkau. Aq memasak je pun, bukannye pegi bunuh orang. Xpayah jakun sangat boleh x?? Tenkiu! ^_^

Saturday, January 9, 2010


Baru2 ni perasaan aq mcm tunggang langgang cket..
Dah nak 2 bulan duduk rumah ni, biar laa aq nak cite cket pasal satu bende yang aq mmg susah tahap cipan gile nak control~~
Ye, saye cume manusia biase yang kadang2 boleh hilang sabar. Kadang2 boleh control jugak, tapi waalaaaweiii susah kott...
Aq kene let it out ni, and aq tawu lepas ni maybe ade yang pk mcm2 psl aq, judge sini sane.. blablabla... aq x kesah, silelah judge. Korang pun bukan betul sgt kan? ade hati nak judge orang, prejudis la, yadayadayada... HUH. Aq dah malas nak pk lagi psl ape orang nak pk pasal aq. Silap2 boleh saket jiwa~~ wahaha...

1. Pasal kesabaran.
Pelik x kalau aq cakap ngan korang yang bab2 bersabar ngan kawan, aq kire bereputasi tinggi jugak lah. Tapi kalau dengan keluarga sendiri, x kire laa parents ke, adek beradek ke, makcik2 pakcik2 ke, susah siot nak bersabar! Susah~~ *dengan gaye franky*
Alasan aq senang je, sbb kalau ngan member2, kalau dyrang buat perangai bukan2 ngan aq, aq cume pk maybe ade sesuatu psl dy yang kite belum betul2 kenal. Mungkin dy ade sebab mengape dy berkelakuan mcm setan.. Masalah family ke, peribadi ke.. We don't know kan? So, ok, fine, aq bersabar. Tapi bile bab dgn family sndiri... adoii, camne aq nak ckp ha? Kadang2 tu menyedihkan bile family members sendiri x mengenali diri kite. Kadang2 aq rase kawan lagi kenal sape aq sebenarnye. Aq rase tu yang buat aq susah nak sabar dgn ahli keluarge sndiri.

2. Pasal kepercayaan.
BUKAN psl religious belief. Aq dah malas nak pk dan komen psl ape yang kluar dlm berita baru2 ni. Aq juz hope and pray yang Malaysia akan terus aman dan damai. Kepercayaan kat sini berkenaan dengan trust.

Aq x tawu mcm mane nak cakap lagi wey. Aq sedih, aq dah penat dah nak nanges dan marah psl bende ni lagi. :'(
Korang rase sedih x bile korang x dipercayai?
Aq x tawu dah kenape, aq ni bangang sgt ke? X boleh dipercayai sgt ke? Perangai aq ni biol mcm setan sgt ke?
Sometimes markah 85.3 tu x mencukupi sesiapa. Tapi aq pedulik ape, janji cukup untuk aq dah laa. Aq bukan the 'best student' dalam kelas, atau kolej, tapi aq bangge dgn sape diri aq.
Sedih kadang2 dengar drpd mulut orang yg kite paling rapat yang kite x di-expect untuk mencapai kecemerlangan, padahal kawan2 sendiri percaye yang kite ni kuat dan boleh berjaye.

Kadang2 aq harap sangat2 ape yang dyrang cakap xkan menjatuhkan aq.
Tapi kadang2 aq dah bosan bile semua bende yang aq bwat is to prove something to someone.
Aq xnak prove something to someone dah. Aq pun dah lame berhenti buat mcm tu.
Cukup kalau aq dapat mmbuktikan sesuatu kepade diri aq sndiri.
Aq tawu aq selfish, tapi aq jujur bile aq cakap ape yang buat semua ni, hanyelah untuk diri aq sendiri. Bukan untuk diri orang laen.
Mungkin jugak untuk negare, agama dan untuk berbakti kepade masyarakat.
Tapi aq hanye akan buat sesutu yang memenuhi diri aq.
Aq xkan buat sesuatu yang memenuhi kehendak atau kemahuan orang laen.
Ape gunenye aq buat sesutu yang akhirnya aq xkan rase gembire? Mcm bangang je.
Aq jugak xkan jadik orang laen semate2 untuk ditunjuk-tunjukkan pade org laen.
Sebab at the end of the day, kite jugak yg akan menyesal.

Sebab tu lah... Bile aq dah pilih jalan ni, ape2 yang terjadi in the future, aq xkan menyalahkan orang laen. I made my choice. Sometimes all I need is for you to have a little faith in me.

P/s: dan aq bersyukur dgn sokongan yg korang dah bagi selame ni. Wpun mungkin ni bukan kemahuan korang, tapi aq serius harap korang menerima kemahuan aq.

Post xnak EMO habes kan?
Sory, just one quick post due to the sudden, swift change of my mood.


I don't know where else to say this. Pardon the profanity.

to a friend

You may feel lonely now but if you have opened the door and leave it unlocked, you'll hear a knocking on that door which you have been missing for so long.
Saturday night. An hour, a day, a week, a month, a year will come and pass.
I'll pray this love will last.
So be strong! And have faith.


Friday, January 8, 2010

gotta learn how to say NO.

I'm officially a dum-dum.
I might have just gotten out from college and done with Ausmat, but one thing I have not learned just yet is how to just. say. NO.

Say no, nad! Seriously!
If you've already made an appointment with one party,
you DO NOT need to agree to another one that could coincide with the former appointment.

I know I sound like such a weakling. Don't deny it, please, to anyone who's reading this now.
It's awful to not be able to say no! I have always been like this. Since school. And it's a weakness that I'm so ashamed of, so very hate, because you're probably thinking that I get pushed around.
But, I think I'm not? But am i?? CAN anyone answer that question please????

Because I enjoy doing what I do!

In secondary school, I joined 3 clubs. And, yeah, I have problems when the meeting is held on the same day, at the same time. I remember on the odd saturdays where i attend the meetings, and I kind of have to run around from one building to another. Running from 3rd floor to the music room on the first floor, and then to the choir club on the next building, and back to ELS on the 3rd. Ha-bloody-ha, and when there's a formal occassion in the main hall, I had to quickly run backstage after the opening caklempong (a music instrument very much like gamelan), and make a mad dash after changing my clothes to join the choir for the 'in-between.'

I didn't join all that because I feel like I had to,honestly because I wanted too.
But I guess biting more than you can chew is asking too much huh?
Maybe I'm greedy. That's why I keep saying yes, oui, si to all the good things that came my way.
Good things, which, if taken in moderation is okay, but I'm not taking it in moderation!

Like when I promised Nana that I would watch movie with her. But I also agreed to watch movie with my classmates. So in the end I didn't get to watch Jennifer's Body with Nana.. I still feel bad because I promised you. And I broke it. I did want to watch it with you. It was not the movie part that is so important, it's the part where I would spend my time time with you and I didn't that made my regret it so. :'(
Sorry nana... sob sob.

Oh, and last raya. Same case. Agreed to meet my closest friends, and ended up not meeting them because I went out with another crowd. Because I thought I was a wise-ass.
Thought that I could manage both you know?
Like, somehow maybe.. I could have the cake and eat it too.

I'm such a sad excuse for a living human being.

Now, I have to choose. To singapore? Or to Kl?
Which izzit gona be kiddo? Because you know you can't say YES to both of them.
You know you have to dissapoint someone, or else you'll end up dissapointing everyone. Including yourself.

Nad, don't be greedy ok!! Having a fun is better than having no fun at all!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

oh miss kerek!

Pernah x korang masuk kedai2 yg high end, designer brands, and pekerja2 kat situ mcm, um, whats the word for it....


Like, what iz ur problem? *angkat seblah kening*

Er, kau ingat kau keje kat Topshop tu maknenye kau "better" lah from all the other people.....

Bangang, service mcm mada~~~~ *hohoho...*

I dont give a flying eff how stylish you are, that does not give you the right to treat me like shiiiittttttt....

I mean, serious laa it's not that hard being nice to orang2 laen.

What bullllll...!
Man, i'm tired of being treated like trash when in fact, I think, you're the trash.

Suck that, mother............ nature. Like, middle. finger. to. you! ^_^

Sunday, January 3, 2010

what's next? =D

Hey, this year has so far begun well! :)
Alhamdulillah! Hopefully the saying that all good things must come to an end does not apply to me. Even if it does, I guess God does His work in mysterious ways. But as of now, I shall enjoy and be grateful to good things that comes in life.. ^_^
Appreciating kindness attract kindness too.

1st January-
Well, I come from a family who doesn't celebrate new year. All the hype and booze and partying aren't really us. But that doesn't keep me from longing to go out and meet with my friends sometimes. I'm just a simple girl after all, always attracted to events and fun and curious with all that shenanegans that comes with them. =p
But to me New Year is like Christmas, or CNY or Deepavali, Esters etc. I don't celebrate them, but that really doesn't stop me from being happy and actually enjoy myself with family and friends.

So far, New Year means watching the fireworks from the idiotbox. Sometimes I get 'live' sound effect too because apparently I live in a neighbourhood who loves to celebrate. Like seriously!
Aidilfitri? Mercun. CNY? Mercun. Deepavali? Mercun. Christmas? Mercun....
New Year? Colourful fireworks and of course! MERCUN! ^_^

My family doesn't go out on New Year's Eve or Day. They don't wanna get caught in mad traffic jam. Places will also be flooded with lots of people like the streets in India and Japan. Mak and abah are especially wary of drunken drivers too. So that kinda explains why we never go to Kl like everyone else for New Year.
But 2010 is indeed different!
Because this time we went to Kl.
But it's for my mom's best friend's daughter's wedding.
Ergh, complicated. In other words, the daughter of her best friend's is getting hitched. Ahha.. :)

And I get to see my parents talking animatedly so with their old friends.
I wonder how I would act if I were at one of my friend's wedding?
The idea is so superbly WILD! ^_^ In a good way.

And on new year's night, my dad had a sort of small reunion with his MCKK friends at Taipan.
It's a super weird sight. Makes me wonder if someday I'll be like that with my friends too..
We stayed like until 2 a.m at Naili's, which is not unusual if I was with member2 lah kan, but I was with Yayang and both my parents. We never stayed out and up so late, but we gave abah a chance to really blast it with his old friends.
Having cold peaches served with ice cream for late supper is super sedap weyh... =)

2nd January-
Guess what? I went to OU with Hany.. ^_^
Isy, tawu x how much I miss all my Kbu friends? I can't help but feel a certain bittersweet sadness whenever I realised how much I've lost contact with some of them.
I dunno if anyone misses me, but I know I miss them. A lot!
I stayed until 3 because I had to leave for Jb at 5..
It was short, but it was very nice to see Hany again and catch up on stuff and shop!

So now I'm hoping for many more good things to come to us all in the future.
Wherever, whenever. ^_^

p/s: I make resolutions every new day. But I always try to strengthen them when new year comes.
I wanna appreciate and be grateful to everyone and everything around me~ ^-^

Au revoir!