crawl.. crawl~ crawl~

Crawl Nadhirah!! Crawl!!

This is my pathetic attempt of copying Forest Gump's movie most famous quote.

The "Run, Forest!! Run!!" part.

I can't run. I'm crawling. Very slowly. I've tried running and I fell. Very. Hard.

Like, GEDEBISH!

Ouch. Saket kot.

Now I'm standing again. Wobbly, on my two unstable feet.

But I'm starting my journey again. I'm not gonna give up!!!

But I am CRAWLING.

Crawling to reach my dreams. So slowly.

Every brilliant runner have gotten so far, leaving dusts and smokes in front of me.

But that's okay! I can still see my path! Because I wear a pair of PROTECTIVE GOGGLES over my eyes!!!

And when tears blurred my vision, no worries, because my heart isn't blind.

Sometimes my mood gets so black, I shut myself in a dark room away from everyone else in desperate need to be alone,

But it never gets dark. My faith still burns a fierce fire.

I will pray, and pray and pray and pray and pray and pray and pray...

Throw laa every stones and bricks at me! (Test papers!!!)

I have my armour on! (jeng jeng jeng!!)

C'mon put chinks and dents on this metal suit, I promise one day I'll chase u with a big ass broomstick and hit u on the head with all my might until a huge number of 85 come bursting out of your skull!

I'm onto this challenge. I'm crawling, but I'll get there I. (God's willing)

I'll be crawling like SADAKO from THE RING.

Slow, bruised and battered, wet from sweat and dirty form grit and dirt, unkempt hair and very bad eyebags.

BUT IN THE END, I'LL GET YOU LIKE SADAKO FROM THE RING.

Future me?? ngeee!

word!

Well, u see.

I can't tell you what to say.

It's okay if you the word 'TACTFUL' is foreign to you.

I can stand your stupid babblings.

I can take your faux pas.

But I think I'm getting tired of you behaving like this.

So childish. So immature.

Instead of insinuating it, why don't you just say it STRAIGHT to my face.

Instead of playing with words in front of everyone else (which leaves me cold and awkward),

SAY IT TO MY FACE LAAA...........

At this point, there's no need to hurt everyone else.

Maybe you feel hurt, that's why you're vindictive?

Aq btul2 x twu knape kau behave mcm ni weyh. *garu kepale*

So i'm pleading you,

Depan aq kau xnak tanye direct,

tapi depan sume orang mule laa kau nak cakap x bertapis.

X reti nak kalis2.

Cakap kasi kalis jugak la weyh. apesal kau ckp mcm org xde otak?

apesal kau klaw nk ckp msti nak kuat2? I'm not deaf.

Shouting at other people does not make you right, or make you greater than the other person.

It just lowers down your own credibility lagi ade laa...

-an advice from one friend to another.-

special surprise.

It was almost 12a.m and I woke up with a start as my stomach was doing a sommersault. No, not because I was nervous. Well, part of it was because I was having math test the next day. But mostly it was because of the fungus that grew on the bread I accidently ate that afternoon.

My phone rang. The first call. Mak.

15minutes before midnight. The second one. Through ym. I miss this one so much.

The third call. This one made me very,very happy. =)

The fourth one... Well, there was none.

But there were special messages. From girlfriends to best friends to the people whom I thought have forgotten all about me.

And then there were my fun and sweet classmates.

Dan para2 penghuni rumah 69. Tenkiu for the 'special' carwash service. My 'car' got very wangi and shiny afterwards. Tenkiu nadon, I shall not forget this..... ngeh3.

Mak who gave me a video bday wish, tenkiu ma! Syg ma, minggu depan nak balek bcuz u guys kene blnje sye makan seafood kat Stulang Laut.. Sye rindukan Jb. =pp

Abah, NAdya, in a Faraway Land of Bandung, Yayang who's gonna get me a comel Swatch (u promised! =pp), Ikram, the babun who forgot to wish me again. Xpe, weekends ni sile blnje saye di Carl's Junior dan sile blanje sye shopping si Sunway. Thank you, plz come again! hahaahaaa.. =p

Raspberry cheese, I love your surprises. =)

My girlfriends, Najian,Shieda, Aisu (si cipan lupe bday aq lagi skali.),Nazee and Elya moi dahlingsss, Simren, Qilla, Sasi. And those whom I forgot to mention. Syg korang sgt2!

Ya sayang (my comel roomate),Nadon,Nana,Yeanna,Anneh,Mia, Tati, K.cv, Siew Wuen, Shun Ling, Hooi Ying, THANK YOU VERY MUCH! <3

I love u people!

Thanx to Hani, Ajin, Sherry, Atiron,Fatin,Fairus,Ain,Ainin,Atikah and ALL my classmates (Nic, MB Woei Song *hahaaha!*, Jinn Jyh,Calvin, Pijah,Aain,Sue,Jihah adek kecik, Aizat,Izzat dan keluarga di Melbourne Aussie dan sume2 yg laen,),

Mud, fadli-ya, Imran si prasan Torres...

And not to forget my bff, Zhaf Germs and Indera. =)

sape lagi.. Oh, everyone laa yg made my day by just wishing a simple happy bday! I appreciate it guys! Thanx lots!!! U guys paling best!

Thanx to you, this has got to be the best birthday ever!! <3

19 is just a number. But it's the day I turn 19 that's special. =)

give me what I deserve

math test math test math test math test math test.


just give me what I deserve.


Cuz i'm gonna get u.